Screaming until nothing comes out

Sheep defying gravity LOL

2011-08-21T22:43:00.002+08:00

Nothing is impossible. Everything is just a theory, even gravity. Yet, you can always defy it. If you have the will.

Joanne

Recap

2010-11-22T21:00:00.002+08:00

HELLO(:

I know i haven't been blogging much this year but I've decided to try and blog again. so here goes nothing!

There is CO camp coming this wed and thurs and i haven't packed yet xD I will, tomorrow xD But there is just so many things to do! Especially now I'm have to take care of 10 kids who are below P1 for the whole day today and tomorrow xD but its fun.

Dont know what my goal is for this holiday. Never had one, will never have one. HAHAHA but i will try nonetheless. Maybe it is to watch as many korean dramas as I can! If i feel like it -.-

You know I find it weird, that i finally realise i can be totally different at different places, different people. My parents think i need counseling -.- WHICH I TOTALLY DONT. Come on, I'm not the only one can! Oh, and I also think I'm going deaffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffff. Not thanks to my suona, thanks to my dad's yelling.

Let's end off with an awesome picture (

Remember to have fun :)
Joanne :D

Friends

2010-08-18T18:25:00.002+08:00

The Sea

2010-08-13T22:14:00.002+08:00

I have thought things through.

2010-07-16T21:26:00.002+08:00

In this year, I have made many mistakes, neglected too many details, and most importantly, failed to treasure the things that are the most important to me.
But I have thought things through.
Yes, I have wasted the past one semester.
But I will not miss the rest of my life.
Mistakes were made but that only made me stronger.
Stronger to make the correct decisions.
Stronger to know my priorities. And
Stronger to hold on to the things that are important to me.

CHOCOLATES

2010-07-11T13:00:00.003+08:00

CHOCOLATES ARE WHAT MAKES THE WORLD GO ROUND. CHOCOLATES ARE ONE OF LIFE'S GREATEST PLEASURE. CHOCOLATES MAKE ME SMILE! :D

Always Be True To Yourself

2010-07-05T15:09:00.003+08:00

Smile

2010-06-09T09:48:00.002+08:00

Smile, so you dont have to explain why you are sad. Smile, so you dont have to let people how hurt you feel. Smile, so you dont have to face the truth.

Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeee!~

2010-06-06T20:07:00.002+08:00

Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!~ :DDD

Going job attachment tomorrow at IDA. :D

You Win

2010-06-03T19:39:00.000+08:00

You win.

A walk in a park

2010-05-31T08:31:00.002+08:00

Its time to take a walk in a park. Its time for me to walk down my own path alone. Its time for me to face my fear alone.

TJC Concert

2010-05-30T22:09:00.006+08:00

HEYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! :DD

Went to watch TJC concert on Saturday! :DD SUPER NICE!!

THE SUONA CONCERTO WAS SUPER AWESOMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

HAHA, sat with rachel, yishan, coco, xinyi and bryan (COCO friend) WAYYYYYY at the back. HEHE. :DDD Had dinner with xinyi, coco, brian and bryan before going for concert at Long John Silvers. :D Coco kept laughing at random stuff xDD then I started laughing. Then we all started laughing xDD

For further details, go to http://for-gotten-memories.blogspot.com/ for like the details of the concert. Im too lazy to write everything xDD HEHE xDD

And COCO pangseh me for sulwyn ): THANKS GOD MINPEI AND RACHEL WERE WILLING TO TAKE THE CIRCLE LINE SO THEY TOOK TO PAYA LEBAR WITH ME! :DDD then from paya lebar to bedok was super awkward. xD its was like only me, bernard, clifford and brian and TONS OF SILENCE. xDD

Why do you have to make this so difficult?

Hidden

2010-05-19T17:22:00.003+08:00

Everyone works together and everyone has a right to say his or her opinion. No one has the right to take it from you, so dont let anyone have that right.

You say Im a dictator.
You say that Im a fake.
You say that Im not fit to be President.
Well.....
I say that Yes, Im a dictator, only when the situation requires me to be one.
I say that Yes, Im a fake but only in your eyes and if I am, then you must have been made in China.
I say that Yes, I may not be the suitable candidate for President, and so are you.

Burying the hatchet

2010-05-14T22:12:00.003+08:00

Bury the hatchet. Thats what u hope for our section. And for you, I will. Just for you. To bury the hatchet, no matter how difficult it will be (: so be prepared to visit a united section after you step down.

Today was Liying's last day in sectionals! D: I feel SUPER SAD. Liying, must remember to visit hor!! (:

7 DAYS TO JUBILATE, EVERYONE! :DDDDD JIAYOUS! :DDD

and i screwed this week's physics test. screw it.

The Faller

2010-04-27T23:00:00.003+08:00

HAHAHAHAS!!!! THIS IS FREAKING HILARIOUS LARH!

Today, on the way out of the Eurasian Association of Singapore, I tripped and fell down. I fell right after i REassured my teachers that I wont. LOLS! xD i am like super epic larh!

This is what happened at the doorstep of the Eurasian Association of Singapore:
Teachers: "Please be careful and dont fall okay?"
Me: "okay, thank you teachers."

On the way out:
I was walking super fast so I could catch up with Vanessa and ask her how to go home. And I forgot there was a machine known as a handphone so I didnt call her.
Teacher: 小心！
Me: Dont worry, I wont....
*BOOMZ!* LOLS. I fell right before I could finish my statement. HAHAS. ;DD tripped over something and then got up on my feet and left. and it was SUPER SUPER funny. laughing at myself all the way home!! (:

So now Im at home with a bruise knee and a left palm that hurts. BUT im fine! :DDDDD
LOLS. The whole 3Grace saw that, and feel free to laugh about it cause even I thought it was super hilarious! :DDD

Anyone wants a reference, go to my facebook! HAHAS.

Got back my grades for some assignments and guess what, i didnt do well!! BUT Im glad I didnt fail!! HAHAS! ;D

IM GOING TO BE OPTIMISTIC!!! ;DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

Friends

2010-04-26T16:49:00.000+08:00

FINALLY

2010-04-26T16:36:00.003+08:00

How's life, people?

My blog is finally revived with this post, which will just say briefly on what happened for the past few months.

HAHAS. now taking triple sci, pure geog, and elective history. Due my slacking nature, I should be rewriting my ss graded assignment structured essay but I will do it later. xD

okay, i shall get going. Why? Cause I have nothing else to write, no idea and no motivation xD

Subject Combination

2009-11-03T21:48:00.003+08:00

Hello Earthlings! Joanne here to inform u about my subject combination (:

1. B4 with elective history
2. B2 with elective history
3. B4 with elective literature

I know people say that the first combo will kill me from all the mugging but still, I kinda sucked in lit and I am good at geog and love to mug so...
thanks to all the awesome friends who have been advicing me :D and sorry if I didnt take ur advice...there is a lot of things to consider.

Anyways, have fun during the holidays people! (:

I dont know whats wrong with me. Something that I wanted so badly, I just gave it away so easily. Something that I have been waiting so long and asking so many times. I have no idea what got over me. And I have this empty feeling inside...Goah, help me!

Happy Halloween! :D

2009-10-31T23:11:00.002+08:00

HAPPY HALLOWEEN EVERYONE! :D

lols, today went with jingyi, xianghui, joy and grace to go trick-a-treat! (: was so fun and got lots of CANDY! but then it started to rain ): HOWEVER, it was still overall awesome! :D

did u know that there were this group of boys at abt 8 plus who screamed and charged at us as the street was totally deserted, and u know joy, jingyi and xianghui went running and screaming! lols. to add in to the atmosphere :) and the houses were large-antic
. like one house had a private pool! also, the Europeans owned houses had the most fantastic decorations. like one had a giant cat on a car, that was as big as the car, which lights up and moves, and another had lit-up pumpkins all over the place. another had "ghosts" appearing at the fence, and they was one who hanged webs on the gates with big posters of pumpkins hanging at the windows.

Have fun during the holidays! (:

Exams are over!

2009-10-18T13:11:00.002+08:00

Just finished my exams! (: YES!

Nothing to update about my boring life except the fact that the maths paper was difficult in my opinion. Oh well, its over so why think about it.

Anyways, didnt appear for the science and english comprehension paper due to fever. Studied so hard yet it was wasted, what else could go wrong. Except one thing.

Two days ago, on 16 October 2009, I was admitted in KK Hospital for suspected appendicitis. Was in school then stomach damn pain. Didnt stop until doc gave me a jab of dunno what fluid. Could not eat or drink in case they wanted to have an emergency operation so i was practically starving. They gave me a drip to keep my body working. Had x-ray and blood tests in order to confirm. Thank god, at abt 10pm, it turned out to be virus GE. Doc said something about gastrio intestinal infection. Kinda sounds cool.

So on, 17 October 2009, i was allowed to be discharged! :D YEAH!

End of post that is a happy ending for once cause my dad is an annoying moronic retarded crappy idiotic insane dimwit dumbell blockhed fucking asshole, phony, fraud bastard.

I HAVE TURNED 14!

2009-09-09T08:47:00.011+08:00

HELLOS :D
i know my blog is dead but i shall revive this blog with this one post.

ITS MY BIRTHDAY!

Lols. This day is especially special, cause i am fourteen and i only turn fourteen once. and did you know, that today is 090909! HAHAS. I am such a special girl. :P

Thanks so far for the wishes and gifts from everyone who remember. THANKS :D and i will personally introduce you:

- Andrea from co, suona, zhong suo (fantastic midnight birthday wish)
- Cherie and shuen yew, from co, suona (awesome birthday gift - chocolates [yummy!])
- Yik Yan, from co, suona, gao suo (wonderful birthday wish)
- Joy, from 2 Diligence (great birthday wish)
- Shing Eng, from 2 Diligence (incredible birthday wish)
- Lydia, from 2 Justice (remarkable birthday card)
- Geraldine, ex-tuition teacher (cool birthday wish)
- Erica Low, from SACPS 2007 (great birthday wish)
- Nicole Tan, from 2 Diligence (fantastic birthdy wish)
- XiangHui, from 2 Diligence (awesome birthday wish)
- Liying, from co, suona, gao suo (awesome birthday wish - on exactly 090909 09:09am)
- Sherin, from 2 Truth (chocolates!)
- Jessica, from co, sheng, ci zhong ying sheng (cool birthday wish)
- CHUA Jing yi, from 2 Diligence (fantastic birthday wish)
- Boyu, from 2 Diligence (incredible birthday wish)
- Amy, from 2 Diligence (a cool phone call for wishing me a happy birthday)

FACEBOOK WISHES:
- Jasmine, from vjc co, suona
- Abigail, from SACPS, now SACSS
- Maxine, SACPS 2007
- Ilene, from co, gao suo
- Clarissa Tai, from 6 Episcia 2007
- Amanda Han, from 6 Episca 2007, RGS
- Yik Yan, from co, suona, gao suo
- Verbena, from co, laxian (and thanks for the cool song)
- Judith, now in New Zealand, from church
- Charis, from 2 Dilgence
- Chew Shiyi, from co, suona, zhong suo

ONCE AGAIN, THANKS FOR ALL THE WISHES! :D
YOU AWESOME FRIENDS HAVE MADE MY BIRTHDAY AN AWESOME BIRTHDAY! :D

P.S. i know there is no tagboard. please bear with it for a while. trying to fix the problem.

Quote from Leonardo Da Vinci

2009-08-12T20:09:00.000+08:00

Experience does not err. Only your judgments err by expecting from her what is not in her power.

- Leonardo Da Vinci

Unsure, confused, upset

2009-07-25T22:25:00.000+08:00

Am i supposed to feel this way?
Do I want this?

I am so damn confused, unsure and a bit disappointed. Why? Don't ask until you are sure you are close to me. Or I will scream at you for sure.

This confirms what is my future in 2 years, and damn my marks cause I am going to need it. Desperately.

I cannot face the world right now. Just let me be alone for a while.

And don't ask.

back

2009-07-19T10:44:00.002+08:00

i know i havent been posting for the past three weeks or so. have been busy what.

OH, I JUST WATCHED HARRY POTTER AND THE HALF-BLOOD PRINCE! :D
excellent graphics, dynamics and awesome special effects.
although they cut off some parts from the book, it was still quite nice.
recommended to watch. i feel like watching again leh...

anyways, i am still damn busy and dont even have breaks on saturday to slack anymore so i am rushing this out as i have tons of homework.

END

Its time to let go

2009-06-27T09:11:00.002+08:00

It is time to let go.

Some things that are gone, cannot be taken back. Some things done, cannot be undone. Some things that hurt too much, will never heal even when given time to heal. Some things that were meant secret, however, will always remain a secret.

Two weeks. One month. Three months. Four months. One year. No matter how much time you give it, it can never heal.

Its time to let go.

Back From Holiday

2009-06-25T23:52:00.002+08:00

BACK FROM HOLIDAY!

had the weirdest dream last night, seriously. wanna know what is it? then read my mind. cause i am NOT going to tell u guys.

havent even done my homework. so i am rushing tomorrow, practically EVERYTHING. so please, if there is nothing on, could u sms me to remind me to do my homework, NOT PLAY. which i will usually do as i have been convincing myself for the past three weeks and it is not working.

NOW: FOR THE HOLIDAY, IT WAS OKAY. NOT GREAT, AWESOME. NOT BAD OR HORRIBLE. IT WAS OKAY.

we went to KL then Genting then back to KL.

KL: shop, sunway lagoon theme park to play, then shop again. bought my 4G memory for my phone and then some farewell gifts for seniors.

GENTING: just random shopping and then, OUTDOOR THEME PARK! :D i think it was awesome~

BAD PART: i couldnt sleep at all! i need to share the bed with my elder sister. and she snores, keep kicking you and moves about violently. HOW TO SLEEP?!@#$%^&*()!

its like past midnight and should be sleeping. so GOOD NIGHT.

and this has no photos. dont ask.

Just things to say

2009-06-17T18:45:00.002+08:00

I HAVENT EVEN DONE MY SCHOOL HW YET!

wow. i am now making excuses but need to do soon cause i going overseas soon...oh well.

farewell is coming....

Jubilate o9

2009-06-01T19:44:00.005+08:00

JUBILATE o9 WAS AWESOME! :D

posting some pictures so be prepared to see some photos. at the republic poly.

Liying take photo de. :D

I took this pic. NICE right? I have such photographic skills XD

YY took this photo. Have angle de lor. (:

At the ladies toilet. xP

AGAIN at the ladies toilet. With liying :D

That time I take with liying then yy at the background there. Zoom in and u see her smiling away. XD

THE LONG-AWAITED.....ZHONG SUO GROUP PICTURE! :D

(Andrea take this pic in the theater hall = explaining the lighting)

ANOTHER ONE! YEAH. ZHONG SUO GROUP PHOTO. :D
andrea, yixuan, ME! (:

Jubilate was fun, awesome, great. Spent most of the time with andrea and yixuan exploring the place and going for some full-dress rehearsals. lunch was...erm..okay as the bee hoon wasnt so bad. Then explored the place again, saw the second half of jubilate when they were rehearsing. We did that like until 5pm when we had dinner. GROSS was the only word to describe it. Then cam-whored with liying and yy, did make-up, then finally was JUBILATE!

Performance was nerve-whecking cause my first time what. Yixuan's bottom-half of her suona dropped during our first song, cicada song. LOLS :D then the rest was blah, blah. normal stuff.

HAVE 2 FLOWERS. :D 1 from Nicolette and the other 1 from Andrea. THANKS. (:

END OF POST.

ip test

2009-05-16T12:06:00.001+08:00

IP ADMISSION TEST IN 2 HOURS!!!!!
JIAYOUS JOANNE (:

SNCO!

2009-04-23T19:10:00.004+08:00

SNCO ROCKS LIKE HELL!! :D YEAH.
JIAYOUS FOR SYF 2011.

this is the team spirit i am talking abt. cause everyone, tall of short, put in immense effort.

SYF 2009, GOLD WITH HONOURS :D

2009-04-22T19:48:00.004+08:00

ST.NICHOLAS GIRLS SCHOOL CHINESE ORCHESTRA

SYF 2009:
GOLD WITH HONOURS :D

EVERYONE put in the effort, and EVERYONE got back her reward. SNCO ROCKS MY SOCKS!

AND SUONA/GUAN AND SHENG WERE AWESOME TODAY!

happy international friendship day

2009-04-17T19:49:00.001+08:00

HAPPY INTERNATIONAL FRIENDSHIP DAY! :D

nothing much has happened. just that my grades still suck, my suona skills ain't improving much and i am practically dying with hw.

big balagu

2009-04-07T12:47:00.000+08:00

I HAVE THIS BIG BALAGU ON MY FOREHEAD!!! GOT THIS BIG BUMP!!!! OUCH.

heys

2009-04-03T22:01:00.003+08:00

FINALLY POSTING AFTER DUNNO HOW LONG. HAHAS (:

anyways, a lot of things have happened and i dun feel like explaining it in detail. there was a philippines cultural exchange in st. nics last week on wednesday and my class was involved! damn fun la. cause have lots of things to play with them and make new friends. fyi, they are a all-boys school. then had some amazing race that was so cool on friday last week in the YOG building with catholic high boys and the philippines ppl. overall: AWESOMENESS.
then durin march holidays on saturday, had some temask exchange. and their suona group somehow like ours....not so li4 hai4 as they described...and the 'they' is that idiot conductor, liu bin.

then this week had geog test and i think i am going to fail. but i also feel like i can ace it. XD and my reward if i get A1 will be punching somebody whos name i will not mentioned.

2morrow have hwa chong exchange and i will not be going, sadly...cause reserves cannot go. hwa chong only have like 60 ppl and we have like 80 ppl without reserves. include reserves will be like 100 ppl so they dont allow. IDIOTIC HWA CHONG! so little ppl. then i will be left out again cause the whole suona section going and i am the only one not going. D: and they will talk abt it and i have nothing to say so i will be damn extra. OH WELL.

TONS OF HW. STUPID TEACHERS.

DONE SAYING WHAT I WANTED TO SAY.

SUONA AND SHENG RAWKS! :D AND ONLY 18 DAYS TO SYF. JIAYOUS SNCO (:

co mayhem

2009-03-20T08:44:00.008+08:00

MY POOR SHAO ZHI! :(

YESTERDAY:
i feel so sad right now. dont know what happened to it but when nicolette when to borrow to blow on her instrument cause she broke hers again, when i got it back, after much persuasion and erm...force, i cannot blow on it anymore!!!!! like last time, i just take it from the box and i can blow ler. but now even after wetting it and such, i STILL cannot blow it. ~~DAMN SHIT BLOODY HELL. F***ING CRAP.~~ i feel so upset and pissed. and nicolette wanted to steal my shao zhi somemore...had to get back first. fyi, shao zhi is a mouth piece that costs like $25 for one.

and nicolette badly needs to go for anger management lessons. her shao zhi keeps breaking whenever she is angry cause she keeps hitting it against something. and yang lao shi is going to kill her for sure. the shao zhi that she broke is her fourth one already. she cried.

and yesterday during co, she suddenly just exploded and turned her chair to scream at yixuan i think. and she knocked andrea's casing. HELLO?! yixuan also not making so much noise like last time and she behaves now what. she wans to take out her anger go outside and scream can ler. and she didnt even apologise when she hit down andrea's casing.

and danica still feels bad for her =.= under a lot of stress also cannot anyhow just start cursing and swearing right.

and then, guess what. i am supposed to take photo for the jubilate picture. cause i representing co, suona. and i am not photogenic!!!! i will most likely look damn ugly. but i am glad i representing suona. cause i will be holding a zhong suo instead of the usually seen gao suo. hahas, see whether they allow a not. should be can la. and i still cannot believe it. shall talk more abt it maybe next time.

2morrow, have to go co and have exchange programme with temask secondary. dun really know what will happen. maybe nicolette starts going crazy and the suona ppl in temask secondary will be freaked out. o.O LOLS. and all of them are like ALL BOYS. maybe except have 1 girl. hahas.

have to start doing hw ler. havent even touched some hw. GOOD BYES. :D

random

2009-03-16T09:46:00.002+08:00

HEYS. HEYS.

i am now updating in dunno since how long. anyways, i am so bored...alone at home cause parents are at work, elder sis at daycare and younger sister at some workshop in her school.
and just to inform u, i have another da jie. wanna know who? hahas, guess la. ANDREA! cause that time we were walking out of school together and some hockey friend of hers was like "your younger sister ar?" LOLS. then andrea was like "no la, my junior!" LOLS. so now i shall call her da jie. (:

fransiska and jessica, for heaven's sake, just be friends again. come on. the whole thing is just a misunderstanding and I AM NOT BIASED. ur seniors are coming back and they want to see a happy sheng group together. okay? and danica feels really awkward sitting between u guys so u want her to be happy with her 2 juniors right?

AND CHONG YIK YAN. just go syf. cause even if u dun wan, i bet 99% that u still have to go. so just be happy, kay? and stop giving me this sian look in cca. CHEER UP! (: and i know it is weird coming me but yeah.

and i think thats all i want to say.

JOANNE, JIAYOUS AND BUCK UP IN UR STUDYING!

just

2009-03-06T22:22:00.000+08:00

JUST.

stupid marks

2009-03-04T17:08:00.002+08:00

STUPID MARKS. STUPID ME.

just seen my term 1 chinese PPR marks. and guess what? THEY SUCK. how to take higher chinese like that?!
JOANNE LIEW, U NEED TO BUCK UP!

anyways, i dont care abt anything anymore. stupid ____________ , no matter what u do to put me down or be biased or whatever crap, i dont really care. continue doing whatever stupid thing u want to do, i dun really care. just dont get on my nerves or i am going to blow up or something and u are going to regret irritating me.

brain is bursting. sooner or later, i will start cutting myself.

depressed.

2009-02-28T13:16:00.003+08:00

DEPRESSED.

damn the stupid chinese test. freaking stupid test. idiotic stupid me.

ARGH. dont think i can ever recover from that. going to be depressed for like forever except co cause co have skill test this tuesday so that one is i die already la. so the depression will be replaced with anxious thoughts. damn sec2 life.

anyways, nothing interesting happened this week except the receiving of terrible tests and taking horrifying tests.

OH. and that IDIOTIC, F***ING, FREAKING, MORON, RETARDED mrs molyneux. if thats how u spell her lovely french name. lovely my foot. anyways, report writing test the marks were given back and we had a shock of our lives. okay, for majority. the marks were so damn low. even vivian and boyu had low marks. u know she didnt even tell us we had the report writing and she just suddenly pop up and say we had one. and the excuse that she gave for not telling us earlier was like i dun want u girls to be so stressed abt it. but she made us even stressed by just telling us. then somemore 2faith and 2truth can do research and bring it in the exam place. WTF.

okay, need to go ler. BYE.

OMG.

2009-02-20T16:45:00.002+08:00

OMG.

i am so dead. like seriously. all my marks are so terrible. and then this term mark's will be all like lower than usual. i NEED and WANT to get into triple sciences. but sadly, i am not so smart as my seniors like andrea and liying...so just have to study like mad. but cannot la. see, i was so not worried for chinese cause my teacher said it was damn easy and it would get harder and harder NEXT TIME. so we all were like okay lor, didnt worry for it at all. but then, it was SUPER DUPER HARD. damn. and i think i am going to fail it. so i will be damn grateful if i passed. or else, i am going into depression....
and i am going to try for IP. if i get in, MAYBE i will go and become one of those 'assholes' than danica said.
feeling emo. but wont be for long cause i always seem better during co. and if u dunno what is co, it is chinese orchestra.
lessons this week damn stressed. damn.

avator

2009-02-16T20:07:00.003+08:00

I JUST MISSED MY FAVOURITE SHOW, AVATOR! legend of aang.
CRAP.

damn. nvm. but 2morrow final episode but i have co and reach home at 8 so it will be long over. ARGH. forget it. try to ask people to tape for me. anyways, i have finished 1 geog poster! (: but still no write-up and still have 1 more poster and write-up to do. due on thursday but tuesday no time and wednesday need to study history liao. DAMN. dun talk ler. need to eat dinner. and to make 1 point straight. I AM NOT SMART! so stop expecting me to get higher grades than u.

JOANNE <3

valentine's day

2009-02-14T22:02:00.000+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY! (:

changes

2009-02-10T21:50:00.002+08:00

I AM NOT A BIG FAN OF CHANGE(S)!!!

hahas, u know what the title means. I HATE CHANGE. and guess what, its the way of life. how ironic. anyways, i hate changes in life. the distanting of friendships, the precious moments that are forever gone in the past. all of it goes away with the past. and only its memories stay with me. let list some examples:
1.I MISS SUONA & SHENG '08! when i am the junior and when i go wrong, there is an excuse. i miss being the junior of all!
2.I MISS 6EPISCIA '07 AND SACPS! hello, a lot great memories there with classmates!
and lots more but no time to really say it all out. and i still need to study. so anyways, thats the main thing in this post but will add on next time when the tests arent that many.

my juniors (:

2009-02-07T20:38:00.002+08:00

HELLOS (:
i have juniors!! and they are like damn nice la. cherie is from one charity and shuen yew is from one faith. I LIKE THEM BOTH <3>
anyways, school this week was damn hectic. nearly died. argh, so many tests but I SURVIVED! then on thursday, when the juniors come in, i was like damn talkative and friendly cause trying to attract juniors that i forgot to try and study in secret. =.= but it still, i have got great juniors. (: hahas, okay. i am talking like insane crap.
okay, need to study for science ler. post when have more time.

chinese new year 2009

2009-01-26T22:39:00.001+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! (:
visiting relatives, having reunion dinner, and having lots of fun!!!
YAY :D

anti-social

2009-01-22T21:57:00.002+08:00

feeling anti-social as u can infer from my title.
anyways, today i cooked chicken rendung today! its damn nice la. i am talents to be a cook lor. LOLS.
co today. it was okay, i guess. except i was sitting in a corner alone, quiet and anti-social while andrea and yixuan talked on and on about everything. i think. didnt really pay attention cause was sleepy.
CHINESE NEW YEAR COMING! (: YAY!
nothing to say liao.
week 5 for me is damn hectic la:
2 Feb: Chinese spelling
3 Feb: Geography Test and SYF rehearsal and again, on the way to the venue, sitting in the bus the way i like best, myself.
4 Feb: Nothing so far. THANK GOD.
5 Feb: Nothing again. PRAISE THE LORD.
6 Feb: OMG!!! history graded assignment, maths test and literaure deadline thing. DEAD OFFICIALLY!
so if i survived that week then it would be a miracle and i would be so happy with myself. or i shall call sick for that whole week. hahaha.
anyways, week 4, which is next week, only have like 2 days of school, wednesday and friday. friday have lit test and must write like 2 essays in 40 mins. wth.
sleeping liao, so good night.
signing off,
anti-social joanne. and dun feel bad yixuan. cause i take it as a form of pity.

random

2009-01-16T22:58:00.002+08:00

HELLO (:
everyone says its dead. its gone. it cannot be revived. and what's that? MY BLOG.
anyways, i just fell in love with this song.

Who Am I - Casting Crowns
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me

whom shall I fear
whom shall I fear
I am yours

go and check it out on youtube and the tune is damn nice.
okay, cca fair was okay i guess.
was sick with fever and stomach infection on tuesday and thursday. or was it gastric. nvm.
anyways. thanks to those who were concerned. thanks for well, caring. especially joy, who was like so ppor thing. help with my work and so lonely those past 2 days.

HAVE CO TOMORROW.
extra lessons.
i have decided to work hard for SYF like practicing hard and it was not because the seniors yesterday scolded us but because i want to do it for myself, and SNCO. i guess the seniors just knocked a little more sense to realise something.
i guess i am the kind that hates to disappoint people and when people say "i am very disappointed in you, joanne." i feel kinda sad and want to prove to that person that i am responsible and worthy of their trust. just wanna outshine my cousins i guess. and when my friends/seniors and i grow distant, i wanna grow back to the times we used to have. good times i mean. i know, i am mad. but that is me and u cannot change it.

okay, going to sleep liao.
GOOD NIGHT.

2009 resolution and cca fair

2009-01-10T18:56:00.002+08:00

hellos everyone. today was cca fair for the sec1s and i saw some old juniors (: welcome to st. nicholas. today was relatively an awesome day, i guess. hope the rest to come would be enjoyable.
anyways, about 2009 resolutions. i shall tell everyone cause if i dun follow it, u guys must tell me. the main 10 resolutions:

okay, so in 2008, i learnt many great lessons and this are the things i hope to achieve by this year.
1. be myself, no matter what others think. to them, i may be weird, mean, selfish, unhappy but to me and others close to me, i am just joanne. and i should'nt and will not let others affect me.
- have likes that i really like instead of liking some things just cause others do.
2. cherish everything i have right now before they are gone. its useless regretting after it has past.
3. enjoy sec2 life cause this year is only going to pass once so better to actually like it.
4. get to cherish everyone around me and every friendship that i have. no matter in good of bad times, we will still be friends (:
5. things will not always stay the same and at any time, things will just change in a flash so there. thats something i have learnt most of the time.
6. just because your friends don't like your other friends doesnt mean that you cannot be friends with them anymore. they are your friends and no matter what, you cannot just hate them just cause of peer pressure.
7. make good use of my time instead of skiving off as sec1. there is time for studying and playing.
8. enjoy CO! cause the sec4s are graduating soon and i really want to spend more time with them because i most likely wont see them again.
9. spend more time with my grandparents. i have been neglecting them lately and i want to make up to them.
10. last but not least, i want to thank all the teachers out there who have taught me anything, even basic things, cause without them, i wont be able to be who i am today.

END~

happy new year

2009-01-01T15:52:00.001+08:00

WELCOME 2009!
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE (:

may 2009 be a happy year for everyone and all your wishes come true.

quiz

2008-12-27T17:42:00.002+08:00

And 'cause Amanda Han tagged me:

01. What have you been doing recently?
Hoping to finish my science homework and start studying for sec2. or else will be just hanging out with friends.
02. Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
Sometimes. At night.
03. What happened at 10.00am today?
I was watching television. [at this rate, my sci hw has to be done by itself]
04. When did you last cry?
For me to know, and for you to find out
05. Believe in fate/destiny?
Nope. Our fate and destiny is for us to decide.
06. What do you want in your life right now?
Not telling you (:
07. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains, or just put up your hood?
I usually just walk in the rain, but if it's really heavy I use an umbrella.
08. What's your favourite thing to have on your bed?
My stuff toys!
09. What bottom are you wearing now?
FBTs.
10. What's the nicest text in your inbox say?
Too personal to reveal (:
11. Do you tend to make a relationship complicated?
Define relationship.
12. Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
No.
13. What was the last movie you caught?
In a cinema? Bolt.
14. What are you proud of?
Nothing in particular.
15. What does the oldest text message in your inbox say?
Why and i was Juz bout to ask you how was it - Peggy. Goodness I miss her and her entertaining conversations
16. What was the last song you sang out loud?
Friends Forever - Vitamin C (:
17.Do you have any nicknames?
Jojo / Mojojojo and others that apparently huizhen and zhang chen and yik yan and kit wei gave me.
18. What does your last received text message say?
You are smart lorr crapologist. So sad not in the same class as you. But i oso dun wanna go stretch class. - Chong Yik Yan [17:43]
19. What time did you go to bed last night?
11 plus
20. Are you currently happy?
Define happiness.
21. Who gives you best advice?
Amanda, peggy, andrea, liying♥[And it wasn't a tit-for-tat kind of answer, it's true]
22. Do you eat whipped cream out of a can?
No.
23. Who did you talk on phone last night?
No one. Yixuan used to call me until i think she got tired of it.
24. Is anything bugging you right now?
Homework, farewell, how to settle my schedule, should I IP outta AH next year.
25. What/who was the last thing/person to make you laugh?
My younger sister with her silly antics.
26. Do you wear toe socks?
No.
27. Who was the last person you missed a call from?
Yixuan
28. Have you ever had your heartbroken?
Define heart-broken.(I thrive on definitions)
29. What annoys you most in a person?
Lack of situational awareness. and that when they dont when to draw the line between playing and plain annoyance.
30. Do you have a crush on anyone?
Do you?
31. Have you ever done cocaine?
No.
32. What is the colour of your room?
White.
33. Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollar?
Well no, though I believe I'd get immense satisfaction out of it.
34. Do you believe in the saying : talk is cheap?
Occasionally.
35. Who was the last person to lie in your bed?
How does that concern you?
36. Who was the last person to hug you?
Not sure...
37. Did anyone see the last person you kissed?
No.
38. Do you have a life?
Nope.
39. Have you ever think someone died, when they really didnt die?
That's simple. No. 'Cause they go to heaven.
40. What is the reason behind your profile song?
Don't have one.
41. Who was the last person you saw in your dream?
Surprisingly, some guy and my seniors. Weird. And it was kind of a nice dream until the end.
42. Last time you smiled?
Just
43. Have you changed this year?
Too many times and too abruptly. People think i am mad and that i have mood-swings.
44. What are you listening right now?
Nothing except my dad's crazy nagging.
45. Are you talking to someone when you doing this?
Yeah sure. The voices in my head.
46. Do you walk with your eyes open or closed?
Closed. So I bang into walls all the time.(the contrary, obviously!)
47. Is there a quote you live by?
Life is short, live it well.
48. Do you want someone you cannot have?
Not telling you :P
49. Have you ever played an instrument?
Yeah. Obviously. [Chinese Orchestra!!!!]
50. What was the worst idea you've had in this week?
Thinking I could actually finish my hw.
51. What are you doing last night at 11pm?
Lying in my bed trying to sleep.
52. Are you happy with your love life right now?
I dun have one!
53. What song best describe your love life?
Like i said, i dun have one!
54. Does the person know that you like him/her?
Nope cause i dun like anyone.
55. Who always make you laugh?
Loads of people.
56. Do you speak other language other than English?
Yeah.
57. Favourite website(s)?
YouTube/Facebook.
58. What's your middle name?
Haven't decided yet. i dun even think there is a need to.
59. What are you doing tomorrow?
Going to church from 8-11.30 then i shall slack at home thinking of ideas for my science hw and then new english tutor will come and tutor then continue racking my brains until like monday.
60. What do you think you are like?
What do YOU think I'm like? [just sticking to amanda's answer]
61. Who will you choose to die with?
My shadow.
62. Where have you been today?
No where. Just lying around at home.
63. What game do you play often?
Pokemon on my sister's gameboy cause i got paid to level up her pokemon.
Who are you missing right now?
Random people here and there. A handful of 1Truthians like Boyu, Denise, Yik Yan, Zhang Chen, Mingzhen etc + my seniors and people in SNCO + a smaller handful of 6ep people. Eg Amanda, Peggy, Xing ern, Huizhen etc. 6ep who are in the same school as me don't count.
65. If you have to choose between friend and love, who will you choose?
Why can't you choose both?
66. What are you doing right now?
What do you think?
67. Which primary school are you from?
SACPS. Have fun figuring out the abbreviations 'cause i am too lazy to write out the whole name.
68. Name 3 colours that you like?
Black & white. I live in a world that is black and white. And Boon Yen says that my future is bleak.
69. What emotion you like to show?
Happiness but I prefer to keep the rest bottled inside, thank you! But sometimes, i get moody and everyone arounds me get disturbed. sorry.
70. What is your life to you?
Surviving.
71. If you have something troubling you, what will you do?
Keep it inside, or tell someone. I don't really like confiding in people 'cause it just adds on another burden to their own.
72. Who did you last chat in msn today?
Lydia and Liying and Shiyi.
73. Who do you admire most?
No idea.
74. Which month are you born in?
September.
75. How are you feeling right now?
Anti-social.
76. What is the time now?
6.28PM (DINNER!)
77. What kind of person do u think the one who tagged you is?
Awfully smart (:
78.What colour did you use to dye hair?
...
79. Why are you doing this test?
'Cause Amanda tagged me to, plus I don't want to study anymore.
80. What do you do when you're moody?
Drown it out with loads of other stuff. Mostly hitting people.
81. At which age you wish to get married?
30?
82. Who is more important to you?
Than? Where's the comparative term?
83. If today is the last day of your life, what will you do?
Play suona and a bunch of other stuff.
84. Who is the person you trust the most?
For me to know, and for you to find out- again.I notice that you're particularly nosy.
85. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after a rain?
Sometimes.
86. If you have a dream come true, what would it be?
To have more dreams come true!
87. What is your goal for this year?
Not telling you.
88.Do you believe in eternity love?
There's no such term. Go improve on your English first.By the way, if you're referring to those saccharinely-sweet Taiwanese/Hong Kong dramas that will never, ever materialise- no.
89. What feeling do you love most?
Loneliness.
90. Do you really think its Global Warming now?
Obviously.
91. What feeling do you hate most?
Loneliness.
92. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
Yes, until the other party's facade starts to fall to the ground.
93. Do you believe in God?
Yes.
94. Who cares for you most?
I honestly don't know.
95. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
Faith and trust.
96. What will you bring when you fight?
Why would I be fighting anyway?
97. What have you done regretted doing in your whole life?
Many, many things. Especially this year.
98. What would you feel if no one no longer cares for you?
Oh, I'd be sooooo dejected and miserable I'd carve up my arms and watch myself bleed to death!Actually taking a free-fall seems more fun.
99. What if your boyfriend/girlfriend two-timed you?
...
100. How do you feel now?
Fine, thank you!How about you?(oh, enough about my feelings already!)

Tag 8 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse.
Shiyi, Liying, Yik Yan, Boyu, Lydia, Boon Yen, Priscilla Pang and Peggy.

YAY! DONE.

results for next year class allocation

2008-12-26T11:11:00.003+08:00

RESULTS FOR CLASS ARE OUT FOR NEXT YEAR!!!!!

hahas,guess wat class i am going to next year? i am going to 2 diligence!!!! STRETCH CLASS LEH!

YAY (:

hello to my new classmates! (: and old ones.

CHRISTMAS (:

2008-12-25T16:07:00.004+08:00

CHRISTMAS! (: SANTA! (: PRESENTS! (: SPENDING TIME WITH FAMILY! (:

MERRY CHRISTMAS :DDDDDD

hahas, over-excited liao. i got like an I-POD for christmas! hahahahahahas, yay me! santa claus gave it to me and its great! (: hahas, it has games, videos, songs and everything. damn cool la. so get jealous. santa loves me best (: lol.
anyways, hope everyone enjoys their christmas.
going to spend more time with family since its christmas (:

BYE.
AND AGAIN MERRY CHRISTMAS (:

christmas eve

2008-12-24T11:49:00.001+08:00

CHRISTMAS EVE (:

i have re-appeared

2008-12-23T13:27:00.001+08:00

HELLO (:

i know i havent been posting for damn long but i have been reading.

so now i am going off to read again!

mummy's birthday

2008-12-17T23:15:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!
LOVE U LOADS (:

-

2008-12-11T23:24:00.002+08:00

HELLO! i am back from nothing but still in good spirits. dunno why but super hyper during co and keep talking......got scolded twice i think.....but never mind. over liao, no point.
anyways, school holidays are endng in 2 weeks!!!!!
and i still havent done my homework yet.....
better start soon, shall give myself a date. lets see, 15 december ba. no, too late liao. how abt 13 december. OKAY! shall start on this date. but u people out there must message me or else i will drag. suppose to start like first week of school holiday then drag to start of november then drag to middle of november then again drag to 1st december. but now seriously running out of time and i havent started studying yet! crap.......
CCA ENDED TODAY. LAST DAY UNTIL SCHOOL REOPEN. I MISS CO ALREADY! :( did the board today and now, it looks awesome! THANKS TO ME, JESSICA, KIA YUEN AND WITH THE HELP OF THE SEC2 SENIORS WHICH ARE YU TING, BOON YEN, EUNICE AND ANOTHER SEC2 PIPA GIRL! [sorry but i dun noe your name. hope u dun mind]
CO RAWKS! :D okay, over enthu liao.
nothing to do except hw nowadays :/
damn it.
off to facebook, add me hor!

things that should be said long ago.

2008-12-07T20:35:00.002+08:00

taken from amanda han's blog:

It's unbelievable, the way just listening to a song can cause your stomach to tie itself into knots and teardrops to prick at the back of your eyelashes; or how brainstorming ideas for the CAP portfolio can suddenly cause past memories to rise up like a tide.
There's so many things I want you to know, but I can't- because you can't listen. And that's what kills me. Sometimes I wonder what it'd be like if you were still there, if I could have the chance to atone for my mistakes. If I could do things all over again. You loved with all your heart even when the illness was eating the very last threads of your memory and consciousness away. The sand in your hourglass was running out, and by the time I realised what I'd done it was too late.
Five months have passed.
I was five months too late.

putting that aside-
i think wat amanda said was something that i feel the same way abt somebody. however, i was more than five months late. i was more of 14 months late.

random stuff

2008-12-07T20:14:00.002+08:00

hellos! :)
havent posted in like a while, cause i have nothing to post abt.
anyways, i have something to confess!
actually, i've got nothing.

i just realised something.
i am pathetic.
i have nothing to do. adding on, i dun wan to do my hw.
I HAVE NO IDEA WAT TO DO FOR SCI!
I DO NOT WAN TO DO MY CHINESE HW!
MY MATHS TEXTBOOK IS GIVEN AWAY SO I CANNOT DO MY HW!
HELP!

blah. this is damn random.

random stuff

2008-12-05T19:04:00.002+08:00

hello everyone! havent blogged for a while.
i have joined facebook so add me hor.
anyways, nothing else to say.
want to know abt my friday? go to liying's or yik yan's blog to find out cause i am too lazy to type it out. the co camp post was like damn long and my fingers hurt like shit la.
nothing else to say and now going to fing some lame game to play.
goodbye.

home

2008-12-01T23:08:00.006+08:00

i hate coming home everyday. i dread the mornings when i am abruptly woken up at 7 so as just to hear my father vent his anger on me by screaming rubbish and being expected to go back to sleep and act as if nothing happened. i am horrified at the thought of when at night, i get scolded again for no reason. u shout at me. expect a reply. if silence, u will scream at me for ignoring u and start shouting all over again as if i am deaf. if wrong answer, the answer u dun wan to hear, u rant at me for saying the wrong thing. if correct answer, the answer that u wan to hear, u continue ur raving as if, like wat, i am a piece of furniture at ur will. always say i shout at u. but i dun! ur bloody hell ear has a problem ar, i tell u! say wat doesnt mean i am sec1 or 2 means can start going against him. MY FOOT AR! i where got go against him. i calmly reasoned out with him and the next thing that i knew from u was, "SHUT UR BLOODY MOUTH UP! DUN SAY ANOTHER WORD, I TELL U!" if i turn bad one day, it will not be from my friends' influence but u!
mum, u come back from work and the first thing u do is, "why is the floor so dusty?", "why is the place so messy?", why this, why that. u think u are the only one having a hard time. man, we are all having a bad time. all we are expected to eat is breakfast, lunch, dinner. in-between, we wont go hungry ar?! everything we do, u must pick on us until like what. we are hundry at 3pm so we went downstairs to buy snacks to eat. u come back, see the wrappers in the bin, start scolding us on why we buy such expensive things and if we eat food in the fridge, u start scolding us also. like what u wan us to do la?!

the story of co camp contines....

2008-12-01T11:23:00.005+08:00

CO CAMP!!

i shall now tell u my wonder of 1.5 days i had with suona peeps(:

on 27th Nov, Thurs, i arrived at the school at 7am and waited for qianyi, liying and yik yan so as to have breakfast together. U GUYS WERE LATE! and i was too early cause suppose to meet at 7.30am. anyways, later met shiyi at the drama studio at 8.30am and we talked until nicolette came and asked us to write some notes. after briefing of camp, we played an idiotic ice-breaker game. we had to tie our legs and hands with someone with a balloon attached and had to try to burst other people's balloons. as i hate the sound when balloons pop, so qianyi, shiyi, yik yan and i "went to the toilet" until the game was over. hahas, nicolette paired with liying! hope u guys r having fun. glad it was over so we could go back in. (:

first game we played was erm, oh ya! we were supposed to be blind-folded and then find the balls on the floor and put it in the pail that constantly moved. sheng people were there too. and they looked hilarious. hahas, only danica was like stable and could find the balls that were on the ground. francisca knocked against a table! LOL =D and kimberly was like couldnt find the pail and she kicked the game master by accident. hahas :) then it was our turn and me, qianyi and nicolette played. i dunno how we looked though as i was blindfolded! duh. ask shiyi, liying and yik yan who were laughing like mad. i heard qianyi looked hilarious.

second game was against daji people and there were apparently waiting for us. we then challenged them to "scissors, paper stone on the run" (not sure what its called :/) :DDD AND WE STARTED THE GAME!! both teams had to send a member to run towards our opponents territory, then when they reached they had to battle out with scissors, paper stone. the winner continues the journey, the loser return to home base. daji people stole the first point and then we had the next point so it was a draw!

third game was at the forum. the clue was "hanging socks" =.= apparently, it was some newspaper game where u must try to squeeze as many people on the mewspaper and if able to, then must fold it in half and try again. in the end we won but i dunno who we played with. [embarrassed]

fourth game was against cello people in the family lounge where they hide the items and u find them. cello won by like a landslide as they found 6 items and we found only 2 :/ so they won and they did some cheer that seriously scares me. no offense.

fifth game we played was "look for the satay stick". it was... R-E-T-A-R-D-E-D we were supposed to find 3 of 10cm sticks with NO rulers, satay sticks were supposedly brown, but they painted them green and it became much easier to find because the green they used was NEON green so it practically shone right through the grass. LOL. but still we lost to cello people again. same scary cheer they did again before rejoicing.

last game (thank god) was multi-layer captain's ball. each group had to send 4 players including captain to be on the court, so there were 10+ teams then first they would throw in one ball and subsequently add more and more until its mayhem. in the end they threw 3 balls, 6 balloons and a packet of flour -_____________-" i think they ran out of balls. lol. then someone broke the plastic bag containing the flour and threw it. burying anyone underneath it with white flakes of horror.

then it was practice. quite normal except I WAS THE ONLY ZHONG SUO! yixuan and andrea didnt come for camp. but thank god i had shiyi with me blowing zhong suo. after playing the choice and set piece that is as she has to blow her sheng. so bing ma yong and long teng and all the other songs have at least have her and me together blow zhong suo. so i wont just die. THANKS SHIYI :)

after practice was for us, eating time. apparently, it was buffet and it was WAY better than the food i had for church buffet last time. chatted with shiyi when eating and then went to bathe. we showered at the gym! cause got shower head. supposed to use 3 wisdom the toilet but no shower head. water damn cold can.

then farewell was the usual, and sorry jasmine for being un-enthu!

it was MOVIE TIME!! and it was associated with our night-trail too. its called ," the DOLL MASTER" but we suona people dun wan to watch so we stayed in drama studio and talked. i was being teased most of the time. and shiyi, how could u! give them some of their all wrong ideas...but its okay. then we went for briefing of night-trail. and yes, qianyi, dun say anything on wat we had discussed on.

Once upon a time, in a red-brick mansion. There were many magnificient dolls. But these exquisite dolls weren't normal dolls, they contained sould of criminals who sworn revenge on the world. So they traded their souls for these dolls so that they could exact revenge when the time was right. One day, the mansion burnt down, and the dolls were charred beyond recognition. In the process, their souls were freed. So they've come HERE to trap you into the dolls. To beat them, you have to find all the doll pieces and piece them back together or else... And whatever you do, DO NOT LOOK BACK, OR YOUR SOUL WILL BE SUCKED INTO THE DOLL.

im trying to recall word for word for the powerpoint. lol. then the last slide was this scary picture of the doll and scary music and everyone was screaming. i was kind of freaked out by the picture so i covered my eyes. the powerpoint slide picture was scary, but when u started on the real trail, it was hilarious but a little frightening. LOL.
first stop, TABLE TENNIS COURT! when we first went there, the ghosts were apparently boon yen and eunice. a bit scared at first as they lookd scary so i with everyone screamed and ran away from the ghosts. qianyi and yik yan smart so they found sock yie and tried to get the leg of the doll. the clue was hiding at the photo frame there thanks to jasmine as she told me! kind of snatched it from sock yie before running off.
next stop, MUSIC ROOM!! there was this bucket of gross misture that we had to dig to find the head...only qianyi and i went in as shiyi, yik yan and liying were scared. all said the were influenced by shiyi. congrats shiyi, u have good influencing skills. qianyi was like running round and round and round. then someone was played twinkle twinkle little star on the piano. then it got faster and faster and when it ended all the ghosts screamed at once. there was this particular ghost who screamed continuously for 10 secound and that was dawn! we had to slam the door in her face la.
third stop (: DEBUSSY ROOM!! only 2 people could go in and that was again me and qianyi. at first, we slowly opened the door and flashed the torchlight to see who was in the dark and creepy room. at first, we shined on some tall and skinny looking person wearing a red strapless dress and she screamed at the top of her voice and that totally freaked us out so we slammed the door. only when we went in did we know that it was nicolette =.= then we searched for the pieces and clues, just then, someone grabbed my shoulder and screamed. i was kinda shocked, but i didnt scream, i turned around and told nicolette," if you keep screaming like that u're gonna lose ur voice." and she laughed. WTF . but qianyi so smart, go on top to the drums there to get an arm.
next was staircase at carpark 26 aka MEP room. no doll parts there ):
then it was the secondary one balcony. there they used a broom to trip us and sweep us. i didnt know xin ru was at the corner hiding there and the i git a shock but soon recovered when she started pulling me and tugging me. then the sec3 cello who had the broom also started pulling. my arm damn pain can. qianyi was like looking for the parts la. and as usual, liying, shiyi and yik yan was dunno where hiding. found a leg but no clue leh. find like mad also no clue. so instead, we just walk around until we saw jasmine tat group and ask them where they had gone. and the missing place was at the BASKETBALL COURT!
me and qianyi again went to the basketball court when the ghosts there gave me a fright cause i didnt see her then she suddenly appear. then when we searched the whole basketball court and no missing arm! search the basket that jessica was holding and only got specs. =.= apparently, got people take more. so the ghosts deactivated and we started talking. apparently, 1 ghost went to chase yik yan, liying, and shiyi upstairs. and they were running and screaming. LOL. then she ask me, why we suona people majority so scared de. then i just said, maybe cause u too scary.

that was the end of the night trail. we went back to drama studio, talked somemore. washed up and continued talking. by then it was 12am and hardly anyone slept except dizi. they were all like sleeping soundly. they were like damn enthu during co camp the games and everything, and that needed energy so apparentlt, they were damn tired so they slept. we were still not sleeping and went over to talk to the sheng people who were on the stage. kimberly was like sleeping but on the hard floor and her sleeping bag as her pillow. danica was reading. and jessica and francisca were gambling with cards. kimberly joined them later. we talked until our mcdonalds order came. and then when we were eating and happily chatting, ms chan wei ming had to come in and ask us to eat outside. then when we went back in, we chatted for a little while more before going to sleep. i think it was like 2am or 3am before we suona people went to sleep.

the next morning, like everybody wake up already, qianyi still sleeping. had a block nose in the morning, she. anyways, nothing to do la. just wake up, eat breakfast. go back to drama studio to talk. debrief and go home.

there, qianyi, i have finished! hahas =D
CO later! yay!

From qianyi's blog:

LALALALALALA I am back from CO camp!

Camps makes me very tired and want to sleeep the minute i reached home.
Yes i was seriously lack of sleep. So..
When i reached home at 11, i bathed, then sleep
I think i only woke up when Gx called me which was like 6
Yup. then hang up and fell asleep again!
So now. I am back to normal again!

Camp was like camp...
Ice breaker, games, lunch, prac, farewell, dinner, movie or slack, night trail, sleep or talk.
Next day: wake up, breakfast, de brief, bye bye.
The programme is almost the same as last year's
Except that the night trail this time was much cooler and scarier!
Ehh...
Yikyan! Are you really scared or are you faking it ah?
I can undderstand if shiyi or liying scared..
But then YOU? HAHA!Quite surprised that joanne was SO BRAVE!

Games was kinda weird.
I guess we were last among all the groups.
Cause we refused to say a cheer?
Ohno. I think i have short term memory.
I couldnt remember what we did during games.

Then we had lunch.
Lemon chicken rice.
Kinda little.
But thank goodness i have 2 portions.Makes it just nice for me :)

Then it was prac.
Kinda boring when you guys were playing yue er gao.
Cause i cant play.
So ve to sit behind with this guy( Joanne ah!) from Temasek sec.
I was about to fall asleep when i suddenly hear some weird weird sound.
It comes from joanne GUAN!
hahaIt was like every few second.
A loud and piercing note will come out.
Then i saw yikyan laughing.
So i couldnt help but laughing tooo!
Anyway. I got quite a shock.
Cause that guy who sat beside me was actually a President of their CO.
I only knew it when liu bin said it.
He was like. Something something 90 people ah. chairman.
Then i was like huh? Chairman?
Omg! chairman means president and he was referring to the person sitting beside me!
I always thot that that person wa some random person la!
Oh. SENIOR CHUA came halfway thru the prac.
Haha. Ever since she come.
We become more noiser le.
But i guess thats the last time it will hapen.
Because she is GONE!
Anyway. The whole sectioon will definitely miss her!
RIGHT ppl?

Dinner was like dinner.
Nothing much to say except that i was having this gastric pain.

Then it was movie time.
But i didnt go because. No oone in my section go and i didnt feel like going
So WE( shiyi liying yikyan joanne and me) started to talk about random stuffs!
lol. It was really funny.
But i cant say what we talk about.
Right Joanne... I knw you dont want me to say. ;)

Sianz.
I dont want to blog liao.
So... Byebye!

co camp introduction

2008-11-28T13:09:00.004+08:00

heys everyone! i am just back from co camp! yay! hahas, i know i havent been posting for like 5 days but i have reasons! i was going out. and i havent done any of my school hw yet! arh...freak out!
anyways, back to the topic of co camp! its was like quite ok la, but i had a great time bonding! as like i love the bonding part la, and then the games were ok-ok. night trail was awesome! keep up the great work CO comm members! then lots of talking abt random things. quite enjoyed it la. shall post abt it later.

dedication to judith

2008-11-23T09:20:00.002+08:00

TO JUDITH!
thanks for everything. it was awesome knowing you and it feels wonderful to have a friend like you. when i sent you off yesterday, i was thinking on how much i was going to miss you as i wont be seeing you until ages later. i will be joining facebook soon when i have the time though. anyways, dont be so sad as i will always be your friend. FRIENDS FOREVER! may the lord bless you and that all your dreams come true. and remember to come back to visit hor!

friday afternoon just chilling

2008-11-21T15:22:00.002+08:00

HELLO PEEPS! anyways, this is bad. i think i passed my fever to yik yan. but cannot be ma, cause i didnt sit next to her on thursday ma. and even though i had on thursday an MC, i still went! cause i was scared of rotting at home so i just went. at first, before break, i was ok but needed panadol...and then after break, during yue er gao, i had this splitting headache and some stomach like it wanted to puke....tat was bad...thanks andrea and yixuan for constantly checking on me and yixuan, sorry i snapped at u. my head hurt like mad and u still kept talking so i needed some peace and quiet so i snapped at u. SO SORRY! ok, i am going to sleep again...

feeling sick

2008-11-20T08:46:00.002+08:00

I HAVE FEVER! like on wednesday morning, 5am, i had a fever at 41 degrees. anyways, dunno whether should go co today a not....maybe i should....maybe i shouldnt....let me think....
and i also dunno whether should go co camp...

bad mood

2008-11-18T21:47:00.003+08:00

i may have fever as i have a blocked mouth like talking than very pain, blow my suona also hurts a lot. then i also dun feel like talking to anyone right now and maybe on thursday. partly, its my throat and also, i just dun feel like it at all. anyways, today's class gathering was a total failure as the organisers sneaked off and shop. i now officially have a grudge against rachel and jennifer. i also fell off the bicycle and now my arms have bruises and a ulcer in my mouth. first time i fell, it was this rocky path. the other was cause i *BANG* into trees. i love the environment too much liao. and i shall do the quizes on yik yan's blog when i feel like it.

kitchen duty rawks!

2008-11-17T18:39:00.002+08:00

hahas, u noe why it does? cause it just does. today, woke up at 7 painfully after lots of yelling and the alarm noise from the freakin' 3 clocks in my room. TODAYS WAS VBS! which is vacation bible school for those from 6-12 years old, lasting from 17-19 november. and the guy preaching to them was nicholas who sucks but it does not matter as i am not even included in the bible study. I WAS A HELPER! with debra and fang yi. and apparently, we were on kitchen duty! which was to help auntie jessie. first thing i did, washed all the cups for abt 88 people and fang yi and debra started drying! after tat was done, we made orange juice! ok, we didnt make from scratch. we had concentrated orange juice and lots of cold water. so we poured and tasted until it was just right! then, we poured it into cups and arranged it outside as the children were coming out for tea-break soon. then, we started to do sandwiches! one tuna and egg for each. the kids come up and eat and make a BIG mess and then went back in to learn more abt intergity. we had to of course learn the mess, as we were helpers.
then, we had to collect the lunch for those kids and it was chicken rice! but the chicken rice stall was at some ITE in simei and damn cheap la. so we took a car there and when we reached, the uncle havent finish wrapping or cooking, so we waited and talked. abt 2 aunties and 1 uncle and me and debra went. so cool. while waiting for the uncle to finish cooking up 88 plates of chicken rice, take away, i ate ice cream and a fish burger as i skipped breakfast. finally, we arrived and fang yi called to make sure we didnt go missing as we were taking a long time. again, they made a BIG mess and i was picking grain from the floor after tat and washing cups and drying cups. after tat, we helped auntie mee tian to solve her luggage prob. it just wont open...as i think her lock code spoil liao....
thats why i had such a fun day!
the rest of the day was er, quite ok. except for some reason.

A Good Lesson from a Bad Example

2008-11-16T14:24:00.003+08:00

hahas, that was like the topic for today's sermon during church.
its from Luke 16 if anyone wants to read up from it. and pastor richard lim was the one who preached. next week more exciting, owe $ pay $. hahas. the website is http://www.bethanyefc-singapore.blogspot.com/ so if anyone wants to hear the sermon, please click on the website. ~~and p.s. its the first time i didnt sleep during pastor richard's speech.~~
anyways, my mum and my sister are coming back for bangkok today! hahas, at 8.05pm. i am SO jealous as they get to eat a spread of food on the airplane for dinner and i get to eat instant noodles for dinner =.=''' then, wat my little sister, erin, doesnt know is tat she has vacation bible school 2morrow until wednesday....hahas...and tat her report book results suck.....and tat my dad was so furious...
on the good side, my house is going to have somebody to accompany me during the holidays. on the bad side, erin is going to be damn noisy and we r going to fight over the computer. so if u see my posts getting shorter or less frequent, u know who is behind this.
nothing else to say already though...
erm, i am going to miss u judith when u go to new zealand and start your new life! MUST remember me hor! <3>
ok, tats all for 1 post! hahas, going to swim later after centuries of not swimming :)

102th post

2008-11-15T13:09:00.002+08:00

i am back again, posting as i am bored and have nothing to do with my time. anyways, i am chatting with liying! who else would be so nice to talk to annoying me. chatting abt random stuff...
hahas, this post so extra...seriously....
lets post about... i dunno....
i am going to be very busy soon. cause on monday i am helping out in church vacation bible study and also on wednesday. then on tuesday morning, class outing and meet up with liying and then go off for co! hahas, yik yan's birthday on 19 november, this wednesday hor. reminder!

and i also found out that i cannot stand lot's of ppl's voices:
1. my dad's voice
2. nicolette's voice [no offense]
3. my younger's sister's voice
~~4. rena's voice~~
~~5. sometimes yik yan's voice~~

anyways, i only have 7 cca points! arh. so unfair. liying has like 10?! argh.... :/
but i quite good already cause my 1 added jubilate and chinese new year performance when i didnt even go!
hahas, ok, i am going to do sth else then. byebye. :)

101th post!

2008-11-15T10:09:00.003+08:00

101 Dalmations
haha, yup, this is my 101 post!

lol. anyways, this is the morning, i have abt nothing to post abt.
except about that horrible ~~hag~~ sister of mine who ate my precious biscuits..somemore, yesterday, she kept having ~~crocodile~~ cough and flu. still have the nerve to eat MY chocolate biscuits. she ate like three-quarters of the tin u noe! i was like so fuming mad. ~~why must she be born in the first place!~~ everything, early in the morning must give me some reason to get pissed at her. that is it! i need my own personal mini-fridge!

~~i am always the one being left out. i might as well not be born as well.~~

abt yesterday and today

2008-11-14T18:53:00.003+08:00

YESTERDAY
i was slacking as usual and of course, bored to tears. at 1.30pm, i literary dashed to school at amk for co at 2.30pm. thank goodness i made it or else i would have been doomed. i am still concerned abt my results and cca points so i would refer not to be late in any circumstances.
anyways, reached co just in time! haha, i am good at running after buses and trains :D
hahas, saw only shiyi at the zhong suo and yik yan and liying has obviously arrived. of course, as a awesome junior, i went to take all 4 suonas adding 2 files! struggling as i went to get it and shiyi helped me bring them back halfway. weirdly, i felt very extra at my usual spot which was between andrea and yixuan...cause i was not supposed to be there since i moved back! why? cause they are damn close and me being there is just like i am blocking them from all the fun they wanted to have so i moved! 1 seat down only though =.= anyways, then i found myself between yixuan and shiyi, which was even worse as these 2 seniors have been sitting together since last year when they came to co so i pleaded with chew to change seats with me and after a while she did! so i was sitting at the end! first time. as they always say, there is a first time for everything. it was much quieter and nicolette was a little irritating...but her intentions were good but her methods were totally wrong. she cried at the end of co and i was feeling damn guilty ok, said sorry to her and apologised on behalf of the whole suona so tat she wont feel so pissed and annoyed.

TODAY
nothing much. after school, slacked at home...won a good service award, so wat? feel so bored.

SOMETHING MEANT FOR ME
i always feel so left out. so extra. why cant once i feel included. i dunno why. i do sth to get the attention of someone but instead, she overlooks it and instead, someone else is there to care but the problem is just that i wan to be friends with u but i cannot stand being near u. this is me and i need help that none of u can help me.

awesome wednesday

2008-11-13T09:07:00.003+08:00

hellos people, i know i havent been posting for a very long period of time but i have my reasons. i have just opened a blogshop with kim san and u guys must support me! http://my-shopping-maniac.blogspot.com tats why i wont be posting so much as cause, no one is freaking reading it so why bother. but this is must-post so tats why i am posting.
anyways, yesterday which was wednesday, i went out with liying, yik yan and kim san. so fun! finally we go out somewhere near my house! haha, i am just so happy abt tat. i am going out of point already =.= then, we wanted to go escape theme park so we took a bus 21 which took half an hour to arrive la. wth. anyways, when we reached there, we had subway for lunch and i shared mine with liying..haha, she eats like damn little can. yik yan and kim san shared the meal but they bought their own sandwich. yik yan ate a whole a footlong sandwhich by herself leh and kim san ate a 6-inch sandwich herself. for me and liying, we shared a 6-inch sandwich which means tat both of us eat quite little. we arrive at the escape but IT WAS CLOSED! apparently, it only opens on weekends until primary school starts their holiday. -.-
we did the next thing tat we could do, go to pasir ris park and cycle! at first, we rented bicycle tat could be used for 2 ppl[i forgot wat it was called], but in the end we couldnt even move it so we just changed them for single bicycles.
HURRAY FOR LIYING! i will not say anything more unless she allows me to say.
anyways, liying's slipper kind of spoilt and so i changed slippers with her for tat period when we were riding. then we went white sand to buy her slippers and for us to get drinks.
then, we went home and i started to do my blogshop thing.
so u ppl better support ar!

revived

2008-11-10T19:48:00.002+08:00

my blog has been so dead for like so long already...i know...
but i am here to revive it! and i am of course thinking of changing skin but i cannot find the right one....so stay tuned...
went out with kim san today...quite fun but mostly window shopping...
dun feel like saying anything else now so goodbye. :D

co was totally screwed

2008-11-06T22:17:00.002+08:00

heys everyone!
i totally screwed co today la. good thing is that liu bing and huo huo have actually went back to china and so yang lao shi was conducting today. bad thing was that we zhong suo ppl were like picked on by yang lao shi. our bing ma yong sucks la...cause we play so hard and have such an important role to play until our lips go numb and tat we have no more air left to blow [its hard work to noe]...
anyways, when i asked lao shi for a new shaozi for yixuan as her shaozi got prob, dunno why. then she say very embarrassing but i dun see why?? next time i shall just sms him instead ba... and tat yixuan should relax...my poor lips are still hurting as i kept biting on my gum so as to stop spitting for a while. and our score for bing ma yong is wrong as it was changed by qin er and shermaine[spelled correct?]
the new set piece is here! haha, its short but i wont play for syf. such sad news. anyways, i shall practise more so as to become better.
nitez. =)

SMILIES

2008-11-01T11:22:00.002+08:00

haha, people, i am dunno why so happy and hyper...
anyways, wishing those who are taking their 'O' levels higher chinese/chinese exams good lucks and always be happy!
and erm...nothing else i wan to add...
lets see...
nope...i dun think i have anything to say..
the holidays suck la...nothing to do...
now reading this awesome book......
so cool the book...
so make-believe stuff tat interests me....
anyways, goodbye as i think i am going to continuing reading and play sims2 later...

4th day in china and half dead

2008-10-28T23:06:00.002+08:00

GREETINGS.
firstly, i would like to say happy birthday to andrea and jia yi.
secondly, today i am dead tired as i went to the forbidden city and it was a killer.
thirdly, so i am going to sleep so as to get at least some energy back from today's exhausting trip.

GOOD NIGHT.

GREAT WALL OF CHINA AND MING TOMB

2008-10-27T21:02:00.003+08:00

EVERYONE OUT THERE SAY HELLO! JOANNE IS HERE TO TELL U ABOUT HER EXCITING DAY IN CHINA, BEIJING!
haha, feel so high today for like no reason at all.
anyways, today, this morning i woke up with a VERY, EXTREMELY numb mouth and tongue. with flu OBVIOUSLY [i always get flu in the morning] apparently, i had block nose so i had to open my mouth to breathe and thus the numb mouth and tongue. anyways, had breakfast which was bread and kaya with butter and hot milo. the temperature in china today is abt 5-15 degrees according to my dad.
wore a shoer sleeve shirt followed by a wool sweater, followed by a thick jacket and then a winter coat. jeans and a scarf and a hat and socks with shoes to block out the wind. had this friend friend who fetched us from the apartment to THE GREAT WALL OF CHINA! lol, sound so grand. anyways, went to buy some tickets and we entered THE GREAT WALL OF CHINA! we followed the crowd and went towards the right of the wall. we started at BADALING and we just climbed to the highest point before going back he way we came. the view was like damn nice la. show the pictures when i get back from china and when i have the USB. anyways, when we climbed the wall right, we wanted to go back, the walkway was like congested as some wanted to go out, like us and some wanted to come in. but as u noe, china ppl never give in so squeeze lor, wat else can u do? as usually, scrawny me was like being pushed here and there and then, got this tour guide tell us not to squeeze and stay calm =.=''' so here own group can go through...wat the hell la...
then my parents were tired and so instead i had to climb the west side MYSELF!
IT WAS SO BLOODY HELL STEEP LA!

later went to the MING TOMB, elaborate maybe when i get back.

now i am posting this while eating peach...
and dinner was like so full..

JOANNE
GURL WHO LOVES TO HAVE FUN
AND ENJOYS HER TRIP IN CHINA
:) SMILES

I AM IN CHINA, EVERYONE!

2008-10-26T22:45:00.004+08:00

HELLOS EVERYONE IN SINGAPORE OR WHERE EVER U ARE!
i am now in china beijing for my second day! using my dad's friend computer, which is quite ok as the keys are coming out and secondly, the keys are fading...
anyways, yesterday, i reached china at 11.30pm around there at saturday and yes, the timing is still the same. the only difference is tat over here, at like 6, looks like 7 and when it is 2, it look as 8, in the night la cause its autumn...took a lot of photos of plants and nature, excluding me as i look hideous. and then, this morning wake up, damn freezing cold lor...and got cold again...bon voyage to yik yan as she is going to australia...
then, my dad's friend, my mom and dad and i and this dad's friend friend, went to go to the fragence hill...although it wasn't so fragent but still, quite nice the scenery...and then went back to my dad's home where we are staying...i tell u, when u go china, taking the bus is not an option for transport even though it is damn cheap la....cause its like damn crowded...and then, did u noe tat ppl run just to get a sit in the bus?! and of course lots tried to cut queue...horrible ppl...went to pizza hut for dinner as went to try this soft shell crab pizza and quite full now....the temperature here is like 16 degrees and wat, i was freezing cold after wearing a hat, 3 layers of clothing for the top, scarf, gloves, jeans and shoes...16 DEGREES ONLY AND I WAS FREEZING!!!
haha, anyways, going to bed as tomorrow going to GREAT WALL OF CHINA1 so must save energy...
maybe can post 2morrow....i dunno...
good nitez...sweet dreams and dun let the bed bugs bite!

AIRPORT

2008-10-25T15:48:00.002+08:00

heys everyone again! joanne is here at the airport...
got free internet for 15 minutes!
made a lot of last minutes calls to all those who have their birthdays on 25th october to 31st october...
haha...
ok, need to go off now as my plane is leaving in 25 minutes..
goodbye...

reminder

2008-10-25T09:13:00.001+08:00

dun sms or call me until friday - 7am cause i wont be around as i wont be bringing my phone with me.

who's going to china this afternoon? ME!

2008-10-25T08:58:00.002+08:00

hello everyone! correction: this is my last post
anyways, i am going to miss every single person i noe loads when i am gone!
marianne ee, dun u dare organize a class chalet until i am back! which is on friday[6am i am back]
GOING TO MISS U ALL LOADS AND LOADS!!!
st. nicholas girls has an effect on me. getting mushy.
continuing my point, i would like to wish those birthdays tat i would be missing, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
haha, dunno wat else to say...
going to miss 2 days of co, dunno should be happy a not...
later i have no more qi...I NOE! i shall bring my guan with me and practice when i have the time!
but must ask my mum...
wait...
haiz...in the end...cannot bring...but never mind, when i come back, i will blow until i die! haha, YES!

end of lame post.
AND MISS AND LOVE U PEOPLE LOADS <3

NIL

2008-10-24T07:57:00.002+08:00

hello everyone! joanne is here, most likely having her last post as she is going to china, beijing tomorrow. her flight is at 4pm, just to let those who wan to send me off, but please call first.
anyways, i dunno whether i am excited abt the trip...ITS CHINA! the melamine accident, dirty toilets and worse of all, i will be missing like tons of ppl's birthday! lets see, there is andrea's birthday, jia yi's birthday, grandma's birthday, and 2 guy friends birthday. sorry ppl, but dun worry, i think i will stick around for ur birthday next year, if my mum doesn't think of anywhere else to go.
enough if the china trip thing, yesterday was the last day of school, for the sec1s and sec2s. i feel so sad la. its like last time ur friends will be in the same class as u. sec3s still have school though... and i wanna go to school with them...but do wat, most likely the teachers will think i am crazy.
PPR: 73.2%
dunno whether good or bad. but i think the marks are horrible, cannot go stretch class liao...

ANYWAYS,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANDREA!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIA YI!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRANDMA!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JASON!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOEL!

i am back

2008-10-22T20:58:00.003+08:00

hey everyone!
my blog is revived after abt one week plus.
haha.
anyways, going to china from 25th october to 31st october. so of course, wont be posting or going for CO.
wishing jia yi and andrea happy birthday on 28th november! sorry i wont be there to celebrate with u guys but i got presents!

nothing much

2008-10-14T22:43:00.002+08:00

MY BISCUITS WERE STOLEN AND EATEN BY MY ELDER SISTER!
although i brought some to school, she ate up majority.
argh...
and today andrea didn't come for cca as she was giddy. take care hor =)
dunno wat to say liao.
todays was reflection day. and it was damn boring as well, we didn't move much until we went to hug the teachers to show tat we appreciated them. I HUGGED PAN LAO SHI, MS YEE and MDM SUAN JUN. they all helped me when i was in crisis so i really liked to thank them.

ANYWAYS, MY YOUNGER SISTER WANS ME TO LEND HER ONE OF MY BAGS, AGAIN! she has lost many of my bags liao...say wat, she forgot where she put la...so like tat her fault and lend her MY favourite bag?! OUT OF THE QUESTION! she ask then must borrow my favourite bag and she always dirty her stuff lor...horrible woman...

GUAN AND SUONA RAWKS!

2008-10-13T09:02:00.003+08:00

TA-DA! its my guan and its casing! and IT IS AWESOME! so admire it! =)

being emo

2008-10-13T08:32:00.002+08:00

ARGH!! thanks to my freaking dad, i had to cancel today's plan of going to yik yan's house to practice guan and stay at home to babysit my "sick" sister... damn angry la... i always have to cancel my already made plans just to fit his and of course, his darling megan... its like not the first time la... irritated and annoyed again...
and as always, i was disturbed in my wonderful sleep so tat my dad can tell me, "Oi! u stay at home today take care of megan." freak him. when he was at home, she was like coughing and sneezing so badly but now, can eat popcorn, watch tv and ordering me to help her clean up her mess...wats her problem la? i thought he say tat when i lazy should give her my brain so tat she can study and be of more use...ya right...more use to go and con ppl, acting sick no need to go school, and get lousy grades and then he will regret but by then, i would have been dumb and he would lost his smartest daughter...too bad for him and dont worry, i wont go and switch brain with her, my brain is like only for me...
dunno wat to do la, with the rest of the day...slack...

school stuff

2008-10-10T19:08:00.002+08:00

today was the games carnival day.
and it sucked like hell for all the right reasons.
for one thing, we were like released 1h and 30mins later than the normal time. should be released at 1pm but instead 2.30pm O.o
secondly, i was sun-burnt and as if i am not dark enough, i have become like become like 3 times darker thanks to the ridiculous sun.
thirdly, we truthians are being hated by like everyone? syn yin said it. but i dont get it why? we quite polite ma and enthu. ok, mebbe too enthu but still?!
fourthly, i learnt that grace, unity and justice plays very aggressive...
oh well, heck care with it. it sover anyways.

and my class tee at the back says, "the suona, zhong suo lover" after my name.
shall post the guan mebbe 2morrow as too lazy and suona is the lurve~ but zhong suo obviously rawks more than gao suo. =)

pissed

2008-10-10T18:59:00.002+08:00

i am pissed with everything right now.
all of u always get on my nerves even when u dont really mean it.
i dunno who i can talk to now without getting irritated.
annoyed at any small movement tat happens.
argh...i am so angry when i think about wat happened.

pissed at nicolette for all the wrong reasons.
annoyed at amy for always trying to fit in but always doing it the wrong way.
irritated with my sister always pulling me down with her into the boiling hot soup.
angry at myself for always being second to anyone and everyone.

i dunno wat to do next.
i dunno wat should i do next.
i dunno wat i must do next.
i dunnp wat i can do next.

weird co day

2008-10-09T22:30:00.002+08:00

hellos everyone! today was quite boring during school hours but on the good side, no morning jog till next year! =) and then, we had to do the chinese news-making thing and it was boring as i had nothing to do...so i tried to sleep, get on somebody's nerves, and play some games and post but cannot as the teacher was there and boyu didn't allow me =.='''
then there was break and had it with zhang chen they all and some ppl were being unreasonable like 'ahem'. and zhang chen was being hit in the head by zhang ying's ball. =.='''
2 hours of drama lecture after tat but it was quite fun la.
had 1.5 hours of maths olympiad training and i was dunno why but sleepy.

co.
freaking disaster.
for one, liu bing wanted me and yik yan to play the guan for everyone to hear but he let us go out to practise until 5.15pm. he said than i sounder cuter than yik yan but yik yan sounded more normal than me. i dont even noe whether if it is a compliment? then, we had to play this song and we havent played in like 1 and a half months for me. so we sounded horrible. and liu bing said without the sec3s, we were hopeless. BUT, i beg to differ. we havent blown in so long liao so no more qi, and we cannot go home and prac cause its so bloody hell damn loud. so must at least give us a week ma. AND venetia said tat they also havent prac in 1 month plus but she could have prac as she had a zhong ruan and quite soft so no excuse, VENETIA KOK!

showing u the guan picture 2morrow. good nitez.

awesome day

2008-10-07T21:26:00.004+08:00

THIS WAS THE MOST AWESOME DAY THAT I EVER HAD IN MANY DAYS!

as you can infer, this will be a happy post. haha, lame me.

ok, let me present to u, my zhong suo! and it is awesome.

and now my souna stands there proudly. I LOVE IT! <3

ok, so previously i was with huo huo there right? and i had to make a difficult decision to go guan or guzheng. i chose guan and it was the best choice i ever made. cause liu bing added in another type of guan so i may have a chance to enter and the photo of the guan...i later show u guys...it is so cute and tiny...ppl thought it was a pencil case...

signing off...bye bye

and adore my suona

wat to do?

2008-10-06T19:00:00.002+08:00

what SHOULD i do? wat CAN i do? wat MUST i do? WHY must i do? HOW should i solve the prob? argh. i only have like an answer, i dunno! this saga is causing me a headache and worry... i give up...wat kind of crap is this...i am going to die...

wats ur freaking prob

2008-10-05T21:58:00.003+08:00

u always say i am full of excuses. u always say that i always find excuses when i dont do things that i am supposed to do. then u always say that i am having bad influence from my friends when u are just being plain unreasonable. u always shut me up when u noe that this "discussion" as u call it or wat i call arguement is directed at u and that u are obviously in the wrong. when u are in a bad mood u always tink that u have the bloody hell right to go and start scolding at anyone that u like. u call urself a role model and all i can say is 'MY FOOT AR!" u say not to be rude or disrespectful towards that certain someone as she is older than me and my elder but u urself scold and shout at her when u r unhappy. SHE IS UR MOTHER FOR HEAVEN'S SAKE! u always this and this but u urself do that and that. u say i am getting bad influence but get this straight, if i become a horrible mother in the future, its all ur fault. wat comes around, goes around. when u r old and retired, u will see all the damage that u have caused. u will see the pain that you have left behind. u always say u shut me up as this "discussion" is going no where, but the truth is that u just dont like wat u r hearing. listen and listen good, i have lost all the respect i have for u. this atittude that i am having is because of U, not my friends.

freaking mad

2008-10-05T15:11:00.002+08:00

i am so frustrated and angry! why is my life so full of problems.
1) i have a pathetic, with angerment issues person as a father.
2) should i go guan or guzheng. this matters!!
3) my marks are so lame and pathetic.
4) i have freaking ugly hair and i look wierd.

as if i havent have a lot on my plate right now.

my dad always like to take out his anger, which he got it thanks to my younger sis, at me and everyone else. argh.

i am a ugly freak.

2008-10-05T13:27:00.002+08:00

I AM GOING TO HEX THAT BLOODY HAIRDRESSER INTO OBLIVION!

he went to cut my hair and now i look like an ugly freak. i told him just to trim and make it a shorter but keep the same hairstyle. BUT NO! he must take matters into his own hands and make me look like a freak by totally changing everything. at first i thought it was a little strange that why he was cutting so much hair. then, when i found out abt how i was going to look, TOO LATE liao. i feel like personally strangling him and cooking curry out of him.

DONT LAUGH AT ME IN SCHOOL OR WE ARE NO LONGER FRIENDS!

who are you really

2008-10-04T22:35:00.002+08:00

heys everyone. just came back from my younger's sister, erin birthday dinner. i tink this year was the worst birthday ever for me, as in family celebration. the school celebration was awesome! cause i got presents and many wishes and my class sang me a birthday song.

my elder sister is like damn wat can. its not even her birthday yet she so enthu and act as if it is her birthday like tat. my birthday, she opened MY BIRTHDAY CAKE BOX, BLEW OUT MY CANDLES AND I DIDNT EVEN MAKE A WISH (WTF, I NEEDED THAT WISH, BADLY, OPENED UP MY PRESENTS (from parents, dun worry, i wont let her open all ur lovely presents), AND SHE FREAKING HELL WENT TO CUT MY CAKE AND GAVE IT OUT!!!! and i had to collect all the ugly cut cake and give out again. she is so...argh!! and now she did the same thing to my younger's sister, erin, birthday. she sucks la!! her birthday only next month, not so long.

so freaking angry. and my father somemore side with her. say wat i purposely go against her. ARGH! /:

anyways, below are wat i want to say to some ppl but no names mentioned.

to: you-know-who-u-are
why do u always act as if u care so much? why must u break my trust tat i have in u? wat did i do tat made u hate me so much? is it just cause of favouritism? LISTEN AND LISTEN GOOD, WE ARE NO LONGER FRIENDS! I WILL NOT HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH U!! you acted as if u were the sweet and innocent one. tat i was wrong to mis-judge u. count me dumb for trusting u, believing u, cause of u, i am here with difficult paths ahead of me and with a uncertain future. i hate u so much right now that i could just slap u when i see you. i cannot believe that i was so dumb to even trust u. you call urself a role-model?! MY GRASS AR! u are the worst person that anyone could ever follow and u still ask why we dont listen to you?! please, do some reflection on how u have been acting. you suck without doubt and i can't believe how i liked u when i first meant u.
who? nicolette oon

to: uncertain person
do u really care abt me? i told u so many lies, i dunno whether u will forgive me? i now ask for ur forgiveness and hope that u will forgive me. i lost my trust in so many ppl of wat they have done to me. are u one of those hypocrites? i seriously dunno. all i can say now is, please be someone who i can confide in and not break my trust like the rest. thats all i ask.

EXAMS ARE OVER~

2008-10-03T20:42:00.002+08:00

heys everyone. as u can infer from the title, EXAMS ARE OVER!!
its now time to say, goodbye to hw and hello, to fun!
jiayous for sec3 seniors, andrea, angela and ... nicolette for their a-maths on next monday and unseen lit on tuesday.
jiayous for sec2 seniors, shiyi, yixuan, boon yen, liying and qianyi for their exams, if they have any left and i dunno the subjects, so ya.
haha, going out 2morrow with my mum to dunno go where.
and i tink i will take the choice of taking a risk and just go for it for guan.
believe and pray in god to help me.

signing off,
joanne

tough decisions

2008-10-02T17:09:00.003+08:00

what can i do?
nothing.

i totally flunked my science today so anyone,ANYONE, who says the word "SCIENCE" or "BIO" or "BIOLOGY" or "CHEM" or "CHEMISTRY" or "PHYSICS", i am going to personally kill u.
i dunno wat to do. wat CAN i do? wat SHOULD i do? wat MAY i do? only 1 answer, I DUNNO!!
this could something tat i have no guarantee. this could change my life. i dunno wan to live my life regretting my decision. i need at least someone's advice!!!!! i cannot make it on my own. wat if, i chose Choice A, will i be able to make it through? wat if, i choose Choice B, will be even be good enough to make it? seriously, i dunno.
should i go to guzheng and hope tat i will be able to make it through?
or should i change to guan, and if i cannot blow, dun go syf.
if i change to guan, and i cannot blow, i cannot go back to guzheng, so i won't be participating in syf. however, if i stay in guzheng, i will be most likely crying my guts out and even though i go syf, i would always be left out in suona and have this empty feeling in me.

I DUNNO

i dun like it when u always stick to me. i need some breathing space as i can be more of myself when i am alone. stop bugging me and always tag along. I NEED TO THINK AND U CANNOT HELP ME SO WHY DONT U JUST SCRAM AND GET OUT AND LET ME COOL DOWN!!!!!!!!!
to: mou-mou-ren (not in co)

sadness

2008-09-30T20:53:00.003+08:00

i totally flunked my geog and maths paper. so i am going to be doomed.

the time is inching closer
i am walking towards my doom
what should i do
will there be anyone to help me

i dun wan to go on anymore
i wish that things would happen differently
what is wrong with my life
why can't things go the way i wish it would go

i had fallen into an endless pit
will there be anyone to reach out and catch me before i fall
how would i noe
nobody cares

sister and mother are annoying me
my dad sometimes ignores me and being unreasonable
what is wrong with my life
i will be the same ever again

the old joanne is gone and never coming back
the new me will come and take the place
the new, cry-baby me.

monday, 29/9/08, the wierdest day

2008-09-29T17:42:00.002+08:00

72nd post

heys everyone. this is like the exam period and yet i am blogging. wierd.
anyways, the teachers today were so naggy, ms/mrs chan, the principal, keep talking on and on.
however, she did not shut up after i am galring at her.
I AM TOO NICE TO GO AND SHOUT, "SHUT UP!"
and nobody is even listening to her.
this is because i am TOO NICE
resulting in me having a LEG CRAMP from standing too long.

during pe, we were playing base ball and i was hit in the hip bone thanks to rachel's bat. painful...
LYDIA LAU LI EN!!!!!!!!!!!!!
if u r reading this, u are so dead 2morrow or any day that u will be appearing in school.
why u leave me alone today, and let me do the bridge, all MYSELF.
d&t was a total failure as my bridge sucked as it will not hold on to a very strong load.
but mr. tay say tat we can do other bridge again and maybe find an afternoon to do again.
and mr tay fetched me and jia xin to amk hub as it was raining heavily.
thanks mr. tay!

drama and science exam on thursday!!!!! chinese on friday. going to die. so saying goodbye and hope to see u in my next life.

the quiz

2008-09-24T20:58:00.003+08:00

1.The person who tagged you is?

LIYING AND BOYU

2.Your relationship with him/her?girlfriend?

good friends and senior:D

3.Your 5 impressions of them.

they are bloody hell smart, neat, sometimes too uptight[no offense], hardworking and adorable

4.The most memorable thing he/she had done for you.

err...remembered my birthday and gave me a present [liying] and helped me with my studies [boyu] =)

5.The most memorable thing they had said to u?

cant rmr every single word [no offense]

7.If he/she becomes your lover, thing he/she has to improve on will be?

NEVER GOING TO HAPPEN!

8.If they become your enemy, you will?

try to make up and be friends again.

9. (Repeat Question)

10.What is it you want to tell for them now

I LOVE YOU GUYS!

11.Your overall impression of them is?

kind-hearted but often misunderstood [liying] and bloody smart [boyu]

12.How do u think ppl around you will feel around you?

maybe think tat i am mad and should go to a mental hospital or thinks that i am emo and depressed.

13.The characters you love of yourself are?

None...

14.On the contrary,the characters you hate yourself are probably

everything...

15.The most ideal person you want to be is?

err.... no idea

16.For people that care and likes you, say something to them.

THANKS, I LOVE YOU! <3

17.Pass this quiz to 10 people that you wish to know how they feel about you

1.liying

2.andrea

3.yixuan

4.yik yan

5.peggy

6.priscilla PANG

7. xing ern

8. shiyi

9. ru hui

10. zhang chen

18. Who is no. 6 having relationship with?
NO ONE, I TINK.

19. Is no. 9 a male or female?
female

20. If no. 7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
err...no...they dont even noe each other!

21. What is no. 2 studying about?
probably everything she needs to know for eoys

22. What was the last time you had a chat with no. 3?
today!

23. What kind of music band does no. 8 like?
dunno! sorry.

24. Does no. 1 have any siblings?
little bro????

25. Will you woo no. 3?
err...no...I AM NOT A LES!

26. How about 7?
SHE IS A GOOD FRIEND!!

27. Is no. 4 single?
yes.

28. What is the surname of no. 5?
Ching.

29. What is a hobby of no. 10?
playing with her toy cras

30. Does no. 5 and 9 get along well?
YES!

31. Where is no. 2 studying at?
isnt it obvious? st.nicks lor. MY AWESOME SENIOR LEH!

32. Talk about something for no. 1
huh? dun get question.

33. Have you tried developing feelings for no. 8?
sisterly love!

34. Where does no. 9 live?
Simei there in this cool HDB flat. been there a million times

35. What colour does no. 4 like?
no idea. soory.

36. Are no. 1 and 5 best friends?
they never knew each other existed. how to be friends or even good friends?!

37. Does no. 1 have any pets?
dunno. sorry.

38. Is no. 7 the sexiest person in the world?
haha, she is HOT!

39.What is no. 10 doing now?
study like mad for tomorrow's history. like wat I should be doing now.

END

studying for history tomorrow. wish me luck!